Currently there is a plethora of professional learning opportunities for leadership development. Many of them can be transformational. However, we can also be led to believe that all we need to do to be an effective leader is to follow particular strategies from the experts.
But what happens when we don’t feel effective, when we feel ‘lost’. This can be especially troubling when we may be normally positive, resilient, energetic, relational, calm, compassionate, but suddenly find ourselves in a place where we are none of these.
What do we do during these times? Does the ‘hero’ leader in us push through or do we stop and take time to reflect on what’s happening, allowing God space to work in us and for clarity to emerge. Maybe we are exhausted, or maybe we are grieving a ‘loss’ such as a project which we were highly invested in which has not worked out, or have been disappointed by words or actions of others, or a relationship has been damaged or are experiencing financial challenges.
It’s pretty obvious that the writers of Psalms, particularly the Psalms of lament were not feeling so great about themselves and their situations, they were lost. “Do something God” Psalm 68 “Please listen, God, and answer my prayer! I feel hopeless and I cry to you from a far-away land” Psalm 61. Luther says “When they speak of fear and hope, they use such words that no painter could so depict for your fear or hope, and no Cicero or other orator has so portrayed them. And that they speak these words to God and with God, this I repeat, is the best thing of all. This gives the words double earnestness and life”
Rather than pushing on and seeing ourselves as the ‘saviors’ of our situation we are challenged to put our egos aside, and to say to God: “This is just not working, I don’t feel right and I don’t have the energy or wisdom to sort this out on my own. Help!” While acknowledgement may or may not be a challenge the next step could be harder. We then need to be patient and open to God’s way of working through us and with us possibly in a way we never considered. Be aware however it may not happen in the 10 minutes we ‘schedule’ for God!
So, when that feeling of ‘I am not on my game, in fact I am not sure what the game is or if I’m even playing’ comes about, don’t fight it but see it as a wonderful opportunity to stop and tap into a whole new source of wisdom, calm and refocus which God offers to us 24/7!
Psalm 13 CEV
How much longer, Lord, will you forget about me?
Will it be forever? How long will you hide?
How long must I be confused and miserable all day?
How long will my enemies keep beating me down?
Listen God and answer my prayers.
Make my eyes sparkle again or else I will fall into sleep of death.
My enemies will say, “Now we have won!”
They will be greatly pleased when I am defeated.
I trust your love and feel like celebrating
Because you rescued me.
You have been good to me, Lord and I will sing about you.
Educational Leadership Director